Date: 6/15/17
They say, “You might be done with your past, but it will never be done with you”
I hate to believe that because my mind is constantly progressing
My old way of thinking doesn’t even feel like it has ever been a part of me
In the same token, my old ways of living haven’t even dawned on me…
Until I was confronted with a piece of my past that I was for sure I was no longer bothered by
And yet I was…
I was dwelling soo much in the now.
Now it slipped my mind that the healing for what has caused destruction in my life hasn’t even begun.
Began to take its toll on me in a form that I wasn’t so comfortable with.
In the present moment, I confessed with my heart that I “Forgave You“
My mind, however, didn’t come to terms with that beacuse the residue of those “I love you’s“, “I’m here for you’s“, “You are important to me” & “I will never hurt you’s” seeped into my bloodline and in my thoughts so deeply that I couldn’t distinguish whether I was hallucinating or being played like boo boo the fucking fool!
The jokes were never on me though
The Peace, Love, and Happiness I desired and required have given me a sense of security.
I couldn’t help but find my blessings in every lesson.
So close to being manipulated and deceived.
Wasn’t close enough to corrupt my inner being.
The past and the present are treated like 2 separate entities.
In reality, they are more attached than it seems.
A timeline of sequential evidence that is personalized to create EYE journey.
To lead US to the illusion of tomorrow.
The past and the present.
Possibly the future…

-Sunset 🌻