Don’t sleep on them.
They have their way of sneaking up on you.
Being present with them today means feeling empty…
It’s not necessarily an ideal way to be feeling or an ideal feeling to be feeling but it’s here.
Demanding to be felt and this is the first time my consciousness and subconsciousness are standing together to embrace and endure this “rejected” experience in its entirety.
Along with other people help with getting me here,
I play a huge role too.
I take fault in my suffering too.
Of course we can’t help nor change how we were raised but we can redirect the narrative so that it’s more suitable for what we truly want.
I got caught in the cycles of believing that I was never enough.
I kept people and things around that masked but yet mirrored that.
I reassured and continuously reaffirmed to myself what I felt I was deserving of by what was present in my environment.
I am shedding though…
And what people don’t tell you about shedding is that it pains you more than it does with helping push you towards feeling liberated.
Every step of this process hurts but I am transforming …
And just to be able to acknowledge that in all this chaos is satisfying.
This Transformation Can’t Be Nor Will It Be Denied.
I feel too HARD for anyone to look away from it.
I am more visible because of it.
E.motions Personified by E.motions

-Sunset🌻